21st
When you become a couple does a big sign go up saying “not for sale” in the world of friendship?
Is it too late in life to meet a best friend?
I always thought that was something you get when your in grade school. Someone you can have a million “remember whens” with.
It worries me more that i suddenly care about this.
What happened to me and you against the world.
I loved that.
I might have a best friend.
But as of late, i feel i’m very alone.
I don’t like being in charge constantly, i don’t like being the pusher, the motivator, the go getter, the cup of cheer. constantly.
And whats even worse,
is i feel like i can never have a bad day
because every day you’ve already claimed it.
something always hurts
something is always wrong
and everything is always so, i dont know whatever.
I don’t mind it. never before.
But i am drained.
and i am sad.
and i am confused.
and i can only count on myself to make me feel better.
but i’ve given you all my motivation
and i am left with nothing.
because your only answer is
i dont know, whatever.
